My SIn

I'm on crash time with my parent
I dont know why
I just hate to know this
they dont know my feeling
my sister too good
and I just too bad
ok fine
they are smart, kind person, reach, can give money to parent and Im not
I just so so, Im not really pretty, no one say that Im pretty, I just try to be brave person,,, look at my parent they always laugh to every joke when my sister say that, oh meen shit,,
and never laugh to my joke
they say not funny
oke fine I will change my personality
I will not laugh, I will be cool person, dont talk to me anymore, I will not contact anymore,
because we always fight everytime we talk, and I hate that,
and every person in this world too bad, you know,
I hate every person who compare me with my sister,
always say that she is really preety, always say that she is one thousand kilogram more preety than me, hey boy , are u fucking kidding me?
I hate you, but I cant say
I hate you more n more n more
I hate every person in this world, I start to hate every person who I met at the street
I hate every person in this house, at my campus, at my laboratory
I will be so quiet, I will change,
I will change everything, because I hate everybody, I will not try to be good
as good as every bad person, bad temper, bad personality, bad eyes, I hate you, every single person in this world, I hate
I hate to have good sister,
and finally I say
Astaghfirullah, God, please forgive me for all this world, this is not what I want
I just wanna be good person, Good girl, being good is not that easy, I need to try hard, being pretty is not easy too, I need to try really hard, why everybody looks really pretty, all my friend are pretty, and why Im still alone here, God I  want to have someone who make proud of everything, someone at my laboratory, someone good
someone who try to close with my personality
someone in a serious relationship
someone who have handsome face, good body, good personality, good religion, and good at everything,,
someone like that please come closer